Written in Ink

"Listen up I'm gonna' tell you bit about myself
I got a situation, ain't concerning nobody else
Just you and what you can do for me
I had the life of ordinary, I spat it out
Now my condition's kind of scary, I need you now
Not love but I need something else" ~Sky Ferreira

I don't even know where to start. I could start at the part where now I have a boyfriend... the part that my best friends are turning into sluts, or the part where I feel completely trapped. Either way, nothing will change. no matter how mant ways i tell my stories or what order i put them in... they will always be the same and never change. And that's a depressing thought. No matter what, your past will absolutely never change. No matter what. end of story.

So this is where i tell u my story.

Once Upon A Time...... There was me, writing a blog and not sure how to. In previous posts i have written about how excited i was for homecoming.... little did i know, i really WAS going with bailey, getting my first kiss (finally), and becoming his girlfriend... but by becoming his girlfriend, i feel trapped. i no longer get those butterflies in my stomach or excited to see him in school. there's gotta be something wrong with me. honestly. i think i was dropped on the head 1 too many times. I need examined ASAP.
I think i feel trapped because i know that i cant break up with him again considering i was the one to beg for him back. plus our families are literally joined at the hip :/ its not as fun as u'd think either. so therefore, i'm stuck with him until he breaks up with me... or i go to college.... im only a junior :/ and that's why i can't wait until i go to college!
I'm not gonna lie tho.... the first kiss was very cute! except his face was EXTREMELY sweaty! like MAJORLY sweaty and it got into myy mouth... that was kinda gross... yeah. but other than that, it was a very cute way to kiss me, and i felt like i was in a movie. It was an unexpected kiss :)

Oh! dont forget my slutty friends either! theyre just grand :) i cant believe how much theyve changed. and its honestly really sad too. carly used to be sooo innocent and now she's just not even close to being innocent... and sammi is just confused i think. i dont know how to help her either. i love her so much and i dont know what i can do to make her feel better. and i feel hopeless around her.

But the past is the past. and it cant be changed. it's written in ink. only our futures are written in pencil