Unlucky

"I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

I'm lucky we're in love every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday
                              "




Yeah all i know is that i wish i was in love with my best friend. instead, i'm stuck with a guy i thought i LOVED last year. but i clearly dont if im thinking the way i do. and i feel like this:









"
You're intruding on what's mine
And you're taking up my time
Don't have the courage inside me
To tell you, "Please let me be"
Communication, a telephonic invasion
I'm planning my escape...

                           "

Yeah that song describes every single thing i am feeling








Any other guy that walks by... all i can think is "i truly wanna fuck u right now" but when im with my freakin BOYFRIEND all i can think is "Shut the fuck up. ur really annoying me and ur grossin me out you mother fuckin awkward gamer with no social life" yes. that's extremely rude. ive never even thought of that when i actually HATED someone... yet its going on through my brain 24/7 when im with him. im honestly a terrible person. but the thing is... i cant break up with him. he's a nice guy, dont get me wrong, and he does a lot of cute things.. kinda. well thats the thing... he thinks he's being cute and romantic but he's really being
awkward....
so what am i supposed to do about that?? i honestly have no idea. i'm stuck with him until graduation... and i wish i was kidding. the worst thing about it all is that ive been having the best sex dreams about one of my best guy friends... but then today i found out one of my best girl friends has the biggest crush on him! which completely SUCKS for me since ive had a crush on him since about 8th grade... sooo im stuck with my dudefriend (i dont like calling him my boyfriend) yeah thats how bad it is! i dont even wanna call him my bf. its like how i cant say penis in reality! i say piernis but people dont really catch it... ok they do. so i avoid saying that word. so now i will forever call him my bierfriend not boyfryend...i refuse to even spell it right now! so what am i going to do??? im gonna lose a guy in 10 days. thats what im gonna do! and im gonna rock at it!!